I miss you every day. 5,000 miles away and I smell you every time the air moves. Soft hair and beautiful brown skin, you amaze me with your smile. You leave others in awe of your beauty. Your presence sets the world ablaze and I love it. I love you. More than you could ever imagine. I risk losing you to borders and conventions. I risk losing you to those with ill intentions. I risk losing you to spite and bad decisions. And I miss you.

So I'm not the best at what I am to you but, you didn't come with a handbook. I met you as a child and you catapulted me into adulthood. Thank you. I may have never made it here without you. I've made mistakes in my life and continue to in yours. I'm sorry but, you have to know I've always loved you. I'm always thinking of you. And even still, I miss you. My heart cries what my eyes can't because I still have to live, without you. My soul bends like my knees can't because I still have to stand, without you. It's hard but, I have to. For you. For all that you will become. And then some.

I can't imagine what you will transform into. I can't even pretend to begin to. I know that with or without me you will be great but, I need you. You inspire me. You light a fire in me and even while you're gone the pilot is still on but, it's never as bright as with you. You are and forever will be my energy. You are the desire in me to be a part of society. To change it so it accepts people like you and me. Already I know you're different, it's in our family. You alone have sprouted from my little tree. I want more than anything to protect you from me but, I still miss you. I'll die trying to protect you from what you shouldn't be, but just for right now, I only want to kiss you.

I simply want to hold you, to hear your sweet laugh. To watch you and admire you and play with you in the grass. So far away, no matter what, you're growing too fast. And I'm MISSING IT, all the while still missing you. My heart aches in passing, your admirers ask "Where is she, your angel?" and I try not to gasp. Because sooner or later, another will pass, and again and again til they're moving to fast, and one of these days I just know that I'll crash, 'cuz I miss you.

I try looking at pictures but, it hurts even worse. With you in the womb I knew that was the curse, that my heart would forever be putting you first. Now for yours, my own soul has an un-quenching thirst. And I never  have doubted, from your moment of birth, that I'd lay down my life just to stop you from hurt. I will slay the first person who forgets of your worth. You're the queen of my love, I'm forever your serf.... Each day I hope you know, that I miss you.